seriously?

What is it with me and expectations? 
I'd really like to think its everyone else,
but they don't know, and frankly don't care.
No.  It's me!
I think it is so simple...I just want people to have the depth of feeling, caring, love, commitment, connection and freedom that I do.
I want to matter and I want others to care about what I care about.
I just don't understand.
Why does this matter so much to me?
To the point of a broken heart & squelched spirit?
Ridiculous!
And I do all this to myself!
What a fool.
Will I ever learn to deal with this?

No matter what, I'll always want to live in the green valley.